A Week of Riding the Struggle Bus

Man!  This last week really kicked me right where it hurts.  I’ve had so many struggles….both personal and professional the whole week long.  I’ve been mentally uncomfortable and have wanted to retreat into myself but also wanted to get away from my own thoughts. The only remedies I’ve found?  Yarn and cooking.  (*I* KNOW! Shocking, right?!)  

I am still working on the shawl that will never end.  I thought I had just a few hours on it at some point last week.  Not so.  I didn’t take into account that I am increasing many stitches on each RS row, so my end date/time just keeps slipping further into the future as it simultaneously grows nearer.  The dichotomy of a knitters reality.  Seriously?   I am just spent. 

The pattern calls for 4 and half more pattern repeats before finishing off.  I am less than halfway on the fourth repeat and I just can’t take it anymore.  WHY am I so annoyed by this project?  I really don’t have any idea.  But I have never wanted a project to end as desperately as I do this one.  The thing is, I don’t want to knit it, so therefore it is not getting done….but I NEED for it to get done.  So, there.  You can clearly see my dilemma.  I will either absolutely LOVE it when it’s all over or despise it completely.  Care to take bets?

But ALAS! I have BOTH food & yarn pics!  And who doesn’t love those?  (besides like, over half the internet with their millions of memes making fun of food posts and the other half portraying knitters as grannies in rocking chairs waiting for death to come ….)  So my interests are laughable to a lot people. Pretty sure that’s not going to stop me from knitting my heart out and continuing to cook ‘til my kitchen goes up in smoke.  Take THAT internet bullies!

This week I embarked on a vegan burger that used rice and garbanzo beans rather than kidney or black beans which I often come across in vegan recipes.  It made for a lighter burger than I’ve tried making before, which felt better on my stomach.  To cook them up I tried two methods – pan fried and broiled. First I had the pan fried in oil version and felt pretty queasy after eating it actually.  Later when I tried the broiled version I did not feel the unsettled stomach and heaviness come on.  I suspected this was going to happen (since my digestion is very, very touchy), but I do tempt fate in the kitchen from time to time.  😊

I also made my own vegan mayonnaise with oil, vinegar, soy milk, mustard, garlic and salt.  I found a basic recipe online and worked in the mustard and garlic to suit our tastes.   It looked and tasted just like mayonnaise, but somehow better?  I also melted Chao cheez on the burgers.  Chao is a processed vegan & gf cheez that is INCREDIBLE. It melts like real cheese and has great flavor.  It is also 100% junk food, so we don’t eat it very often, but Man!  When we do, we REALLY enjoy the creamy meltiness of it.  

Vegan cheez burger topped with craft beer sauerkraut. Mmmmm.

In other news – my husband and I are gearing up for a big change in our lives.  The details haven’t been ironed out yet, but we are steadily moving in the direction of big changes for us both.  All good vibes here!  I cannot really talk about it yet, but the moment I get the OK, IT’S ON LIKE DONKEY KONG!

Since starting to write this blog post last night until now, I have finished the shawl that never ends.  And this is what it looks like now……. 

Hated it.

Just Another Manic Monday

Can someone please tell me how I end up in the bathroom extracting slimy hair clogs out of the shower drain when I was just in the middle of whipping up a batch of pico de gallo? Or, how I find myself ankle deep in marsh mud with three dogs chasing mallards all in different directions, when the last thing I remember doing is making the bed and fluffing the pillows? Is this the mind of someone who’s losing it, or is it the mind of someone who has taken multi-tasking to a whole ‘nutha level? I seriously don’t know.

A typical day for me starts around 5:30 am with all three dogs flapping their ears and making not-so-subtle high-pitched whining sounds. They have to go out, and they have to go out NOW! HURRRY MUMMM! All the while they are tripping me every step of the way from bedroom to back door. Honestly, I think there is no way they have to go to the bathroom THAT bad, but they are convinced. So out they shall go!

Ninety-nine out of a hundred of my days start that early. And when I have a day off of work, like I do today, I feel that I MUST do ALL THE THINGS! So today I am cleaning, and writing, and researching, and knitting, and making food, and walking dogs, and apparently…..picking wads of gacky hair balls out of my shower drain. I will spare you the photographic evidence of that activity (will email pics upon request.)

These guys = Pure Mayhem

My knitting project on tap for today? I am planning on casting on another Beneath the Pines shawl. I love, love, love this pattern! I love it so much that I knitted three of them in the period of 14 days – I was seriously binge knitting! I kept two shawls for myself and gifted the other to a friend who is recovering from cancer treatments. Knowing that she is wrapped in warmth and comfort and the love of each stitch I made for her, makes my heart swell. I’m also planning on making two more shawls, one in a speckled black, and one in a robin’s egg blue. ( If you’re interested in purchasing one, message me via my

CONTACT ME page or on Facebook @knitsticksblog. I’m only making two, and it’s first come, first served!)

Creamy and dreamy ~ I love this shawl!

I have been working diligently on a project (that I will post about later this week), while binge-watching a LOT of Netflix. Like, an embarrassing amount of tv consumption is happening in this house. Since signing up for Netflix three months ago I have watched entire complete seasons of The Office, Weeds, Orange is the New Black, Anne With An E, Anne of Green Gables and the available seasons of The Crown and You. AND now I’m onto Little House on the Prairie and Stranger Things. See! Told ya it was an embarrassing amount of mindless tube watching. I only tell you this in hopes for some sort of validation from my fellow crafters…..PLEASE tell me you gobble up tons of crap tv while crafting. PRETTY PLEASE!(?) To my credit though, my house is pretty spotless at any given time, the laundry is always done and we are not starving to death. I manage it all like this: when I get home from work I knock out all my chores as quickly as possible so I can do what I WANT to do. Sitting on my can-can while knitting (and watching Netflix) is my REWARD for getting all my “have to’s” done. In a nutshell, I get all the grownupy junk out of the way so I can do the fun stuff. I hold myself accountable to it and rarely do I let the important-house-running-stuff slide so that I can knit instead. I’ve always felt like I’m somehow cheating the system, but after re-reading what I just wrote, it now just seems more like I am simply being an adult. Man! I am so bummed! Here I actually thought I invented “how to do stuff”, but as it turns out – I am just being a responsible person (and someone already invented being THAT). I sure hope this realization hasn’t just zapped me of the buzz I get from being “Super Me”. Uhg.

Well now that I burst my own bubble, I guess I’m off to try to enjoy the rest of my Monday!  There’s plenty of it left and I’m curious to see where I end up 🙂

*For the record, I didn’t wander off and do ANYTHING else while writing this. Progress!

Maryland, my Maryland! Oh how I miss thee!